Being Self Aware


The last Sunday in June, I had to preach/teach a special lesson. A lesson, that usually doesn’t get put into words very often, but we learn it along the way. We struggle with these things because we are always growing, but when they are placed out on a line and we can see it with our eyes, we begin to see them for what they really are.

Applicable key points to why and how being self-aware of your life markers; the things that make up your life and your surroundings, can help you see the world as God sees it.

What the devil wants us to see is the things that we want- that we can get with out God-, not need from God. He also makes us focus on the things that bums us out instead of giving them to God and focusing on how great God is in seasons and storms and out of them. But if we keep a constant check on us and our surroundings, we can’t miss step with God or have disappointments which are also “missed appointments”. Let’s read on…

Being Self Aware

  1. You can’t harm yourself or anyone else. [No harm, no foul] 1 Chronicle 16:22 + Psalms 105:15, Proverbs 3:30, Acts 28:5, Romans 13:10
  2. It means to “Gut Check”, spirit check, just evaluate your progress and perspective. [Gut check, Spirit check] Haggai 1:7
  3. Perspective is key… Always keep your focus on the things around you, how they affect you (make you feel) and your reaction to them. [Look through the eyes of heaven] 2 Corinthians 5:7
  4. Priorities are key… Always reorder them. Life happens, so things change, but remember God doesn’t. [Make time for what really matters] Matthew 6:33, Romans 12:2

(5-9)[What you do on the inside affects the outside] 2 Corinthians 11:22-33, 12:1-6 Ephesians 6:10-18

  1. Physical Awareness of your relationship with how you treat and take care of yourself, your rewards from God, and other people.
  2. Spiritual Awareness of how you treat yourself, Jesus, and other people.
  3. Mental Awareness of the enemy’s attack to your mind, and how you handle that with the whole armor of God.
  4. Emotional Awareness of how you react in life to situations good and bad. God gave us emotions to experience life. Not to harm life, memories, or people around us.
  5. It’s okay to feel tired, exhausted, frustrated and so on… Just don’t stay there.
  6. Balance is key, Jesus is key. Jesus never said “I am tired of being the good guy. I’m tired of carrying you, to pick you up when you fall, and to go over the same topic with you for the hundredth time.” [Find your Jesus center] John 16:33
  7. Move on! Your issues won’t be issues forever. Choose to solve the ones you can with the knowledge of Christ and give the rest you can’t solve to Christ. [Forgive and Forget] Matthew 6:12, Psalms 86:5
  8. Be wise with your words! Satan has only a few tactics in which to tempt and harm us, while God gave us simple victory with our words. So use them wisely. A good way to think about it is to say, God wants us to use Jesus wisely, since He is the Word that was is the beginning. [Wise men use wise words] Ephesians 5:4, John 1:1


B’Sweet~Stay Self Aware,


Sin & Righteousness

Good Day,

A commentary in my  Bible, The Evidence Bible, by John MacArthur refering to Romans 5:20 says,

“God’s grace cannot be faithfully preached to unbelievers until His Law is preached and man’s corrupt nature is exposed. It is impossible for a person to fully realize his need for God’s grace until he sees how teribly he has failed the standards of God’s Law. It is impossible for him to realize his need for mercy until he realizes the magnitude of his guilt.”

It’s important to know this isn’t just for others who aren’t believers in Christ Jesus, but for ourselves. Many times it takes us to go back and examine ourselves. We are humans. We have flesh and spirit; they war with each other as it says in Galatians 5:16-17. It’s alright to know you are human, because God knows this and we have an advocate who sits at His right hand, Luke 22:69. But that doesn’t mean to continue in sin.

It means to get a grip on with your life. God did not make us with a folly spirit. Most assuredly he has given us free will, Galatians 4:31. I’ll tell you, I am not a perfect person.


Yes, I just said that. If I was perfect I wouldn’t have a story to tell. I wouldn’t be relateable. I would be speaking hot air constantly and this blog, my life, would be meaningless. Nothing would mater and Satan would have won me over. If I have nothing to live for, how can I know the standards that were set by God?How would I know right from wrong. Well first, God set the standards (all the commandment, not just the ten) for me and you, for us. I wouldn’t be writing meaningful blogpost, singing meaningful praise & worship, leaning on righteous faith for my business, living, if I did not live by the standards set.

We don’t make the standards, God does.

We don’t have to do the hard work of thinking and thinking about what is right or wrong. God has already done that for us. We don’t have to do the hard work. God always lays down the foundation for us. Now, we do have to do the work, and God never ever asks us to do the work in our own strength. He tells us to rely on Him and only Him, Isaiah 40:29 and Psalms 105:4.

When we realize we aren’t the true saints we need to be in God, that’s when the real change begins. It’s hard, I know it is, but the work and the final product; the reward, is ever so sweet. It is amazing to finally take the plank out of your own eyes(Matthew 7:3-5) before someone else and see the hurt and grime built up on your vessel(1 Thessalonians 4:4), the carrying piece of the Holy Spirit.

We aren’t perfect, in fact our canvases were made blank so God can write our stories in its great magnificent detail. God is just that good. Remember to check yourself daily. Don’t be caught off guard ever, in as God comes back and you are not ready(Luke 21:36).

B’Sweet-Stay Sweet,

Annie ♡


Good Day Friends,

Today is OBD! I am happy to announce the first podcast on my blog. It’s been a long decision but it was finally made and so here it is. You will need:

1. Time    2. A Heart Willing To Learn   3. The Holy Spirit

I Hope you enjoy this podcast.

God Is Uncompromising Published on PodOmatic

A few scriptures to go along with the Podcast:

  • Psalm 57:7 My heart is steadfast, O God, my heart is steadfast! I will sing and make melody!”
  • Proverbs 20:28Steadfast love and faithfulness preserve the king, and by steadfast love his throne is upheld.
  • 2 Peter 1:6 ” For this very reason, make every effort to supplement your faith with virtue, and virtue with knowledge, and knowledge with self-control, and self-control with steadfastness, and steadfastness with godliness, and godliness with brotherly affection, and brotherly affection with love.”
  • Colossians 4:2 “Continue steadfastly in prayer, being watchful in it with thanksgiving.”
  • Exodus 20:6 “but showing steadfast love to thousands of those who love me and keep my commandments.”
  • 1 Chronicles 16:34 Oh give thanks to the Lord, for he is good; for his steadfast love endures forever!”

One person, in the Bible, has talked about Gods amazing-saving-grace and steadfast love all the time. David. He knew what it meant to give himself up daily. He was a great in expressing his worries, doubts, love, joy, in the simplest form known to human nature. With out voices. With praise and worship. It was natural for David, the anointed king, to give up his desires and wants to God as if his life depended on it. And so shall I be. I want to depend on God and no one else. Unless God says otherwise, I look toward Him, and Him alone.

Maybe in a later podcast or blog, I’ll talk about the promise ring and necklace plus the letters. Give you more of an insight on promises and how I’ve progressed since then and now.


B’ Sweet~Stay Sweet,

Annie ♥


Know For Yourself: Perception


  • the ability to see, hear, or become aware of something through the senses

To perceive something means to be able [to understanding] with all your being.

So it goes to say since God gave us a brain, use it.

2 Timothy 2:7 “Consider what I say, for the Lord will give you understanding in everything.” It’s not everyday you come upon something as great as the word perception, and yet everyday we should be reading the Bible. All through scripture God and the disciples tell us to get understanding or insight, which mean the same thing. It must be necessary to get these things or else it wouldn’t be repeated constantly.
So what is perception all about?
Perception requires the body and it’s functions. The use of our senses and knowledge. Now, notice I didn’t say our knowledge for as a singular person out of many, we know nothing. Even as a sect of people- such as the Church -we still have no knowledge of our own unless learned from Jesus Christ Himself (don’t forget that He is also the word that was in the beginning and is to come). Proverbs 2:6 “For the LORD gives wisdom; From His mouth come knowledge and understanding.” This versed alone tells us that we get knowledge from God and understanding as well.
Kings James Version says something a bit different. KJV says “Wisdom is the principal thing; therefore get wisdom: and with all thy getting get understanding. Wisdom is the principal thing. Wisdom is the ‘first of importance’; It is important. Why, if we considered to actually ask God for Wisdom, He said many things will happen. For an overall summary, Mark 4:10-20 tells of Jesus explaining the purpose of parables. Jesus’ says in verse 12 ‘ “they may indeed see but not perceive, and may indeed hear but not understand, lest they should turn and be forgiven.” ‘ In this he was talking about the ‘outside world’. The world, excluding the disciples and those who followed Him. There was a reason when Jesus spoke and everything thing seemed like jibber-jabber to the on lookers who didn’t believe in Jesus. They didn’t believe and so therefore didn’t understand anything about Jesus or the value held of being a Child of God.
The disciples and followers understood and all the more continued to gain insight while being around Jesus and actually learning. So, I will purpose the question, Why are we having a hard time in life? Generally the things like studying the Word of God seem hard or to pass right over our heads. This can be answered easily. Before beginning any kind of action or activity in the morning, I suggest prayer and effective prayer. Prayer that starts with you and ends with God. Prayer that begins with the first thing that comes to mind and will end with the last thing God gives you. It’s not hard to start and end our days with God. We just need to put one foot in front of the other.
We won’t be able to understand the Bible if we don’t ask God to help us understand; to give us knowledge and understanding. After all God gives wisdom and we know that we must get Wisdom- it really isn’t a choice if we want to live a Holy, Graceful, Merciful life for Jesus.
Psalms 119:34 “Give me understanding, that I may observe Your law And keep it with all my heart.”
Another definition of Perception is key to our living on earth:
  • a way of regarding, understanding, or interpreting something; a mental impression.

Now, let’s put this in the sense of our relationship with Christ. If we regard, understand, or interpret the Bible and our life as a mental impression of how Jesus Christ has {many times} told us to live, what would that look like? Take that image and run! Run as fast as you can because Satan is planning on stealing it. Mark 4:15 “And these are the ones along the path, where the word is sown: when they hear, Satan immediately comes and takes away the word that is sown in them.

I tell you today, don’t be the one ‘along the path where the word is sown’, neither be where the word is sown on rocky ground (v.16-17), and yet don’t be the ones sown among thorns. But be where the word is sown on good soil, (v.20) ‘But those that were sown on the good soil are the ones who hear the word and accept it and bear fruit, thirtyfold, and sixtyfold and a hundredfold.’

Perception isn’t hard to understand and it’s really isn’t difficult to study. I want you to understand. I want what God wants. He wants everyone to know Him and to accept Him. He has done everything for us, still does, and yet we put a wall up to shut him out. Many people don’t care and there are those who do but ‘don’t have time’. What would it feel like if God didn’t have time for you? We have this image in our head that God has all the time in the universe… well because He made it. So think about a time where God was so busy He couldn’t be there when you needed him most.

So remember Isaiah 6:9-10 “ And he said, “Go, and say to this people: “‘Keep on hearing, but do not understand; keep on seeing, but do not perceive.’ Make the heart of this people dull and their ears heavy, and blind their eyes; lest they see with their eyes, and hear with their ears, and understand with their hearts, and turn and be healed.” ”

Let’s be the ones planted where the soil is good and where the word is sewed and reaped 30, 60, even 100 fold.

B’Sweet~Stay Perceptive,

Annie ♥



Know For Yourself: Don’t Give Up.

{Previously Named: I Got A Job! Giving you highlights from my story!}

Hey There,

I Got A Job! I can’t believe I am saying this but, I got a job! You might think, ‘well what is so great about this news?’ So here is the answer… it’s my first job. I have never had a job in all my twenty-two years of life.

I just didn’t want to settle.

I used to help my mom with her daycare, though I never got paid. She needed the help and I was there, so in retrospect I help my mother out for seven years. I don’t really consider it a job, even though I was basically there as a worker, I didn’t need a job during that time now that I think about it. I could probably, also contribute to being twenty-two and not working till now by the idea that I was pretty lazy.

Pretty Lazy. Then, no one could top me.

I was really lazy and I knew at some point I wanted to not be because God didn’t make me lazy. Now, I didn’t grow up in a family that was rich. No, by far. But, we were well off; consider high-middle class. We had it when we had it and when we didn’t we had family and church friends to help us out.

During my high school years I really wanted a car but then discovered a really ‘disheartened’ catch twenty-two… I needed a car, to drive to work-> I need money to get said car-> I need a job that will pay me money to get said car.

Catch 22 = Car>Money>Job

This catch 22 was so mind-boggling to me then and it still is except this time we have two cars in my little four people family. My, Mama, My Step-Papa, My Sister, and I. My sister started working in November 2014 where God miraculously provided a car which she takes good care of and my mama, well she ‘lost’ her first car and got another one so she’s fine now. I have goals to get a car soon, but before then I am going to save up for a hefty down payment.

Now, how I got to this part in life where I shook off my lazy bouts and decided to let God change me was long process starting from late high school days: senior year.There was no way in this universe you could get me in retail. I applied but no one ever called back. I didn’t really have a liking for retail nor food establishment and I believe God knew and understood.

I moved back to my old city of residence back in fall 2014 and got back into a lazy funk. This time it wasn’t the same lazy but more so, me asking God ‘What Now?’

‘God, What do I do now with my life?’

I believe everyone come to a certain point in there life, if not points, and ask God what do I do now.  It’s possible to ask every week even and I’ve learned ‘without exercised trust and faith in God, I will forever be lost.’ The previous year God took me through a patience exercise and I am a more patient than I have ever been in my life.

“Watch and pray that you may not enter into temptation. The spirit indeed is willing, but the flesh is weak.” Matthew 26:14

I wanted to learn how to put my life on track for God, with God. My spirit was willing my flesh to get in order. I knew it took steps to get where I am today and it is going to take more steps to get further. In order to get to a place where I could not be lazy or a ‘parked car’, God had to first free me of my trouble some impatience with Him. I was a really impatient person, especially knowing that God was going to bless me with things He said and it’s been years I haven’t seen them yet. That ‘exercise’ was a pull and tug two year journey that I don’t want to go back through.

Almighty Grace and Mercy.

Brotherly Kindness & Gentleness were next. I lacked any kind of grace and mercy. I had no grace and didn’t even use the word, not even as a name. Mercy, I had very little of. I was shown mercy, yes, but I didn’t show mercy in return. This lack of knowledge led me to be very abrasive to others including family while being exceptionally harsh and judgmental of myself. Now before this sounds like a sob fest I must confess, I was very tough-skinned so my harsh nature with myself wasn’t shocking for me. I would combat myself, ‘You need to do better.” and sometimes it did get pretty rough and dirty, “I feel so stupid. I feel like a dumb person, as if I can’t learn.”

Like an Onion, Layer by Layer.

Once I passed though patience it was like God was stripping an onion. Layer by Layer. Patience was a big problem because I didn’t rely on people but God, the only problem was waiting. Brotherly Kindness was a bit more difficult. I was painfully, self aware, die hard loner. I remember in 2010 for valentines day, two of my sisters and I made a promise/pledge and they were sealed off with sentimental items. Mines from the both of them were pretty similar, I could see God moving; to break out of my shell and blossom into a young lady. I am the baby in the family, hence forth and forevermore always treated as the last to know and to see.

The point of the matter is I didn’t to break it. It was a promise I made to them both and with God as my witness. I didn’t want to break it and I still don’t. God used a moment while I was uprooted from the familiar and placed in the unfamiliar to get me to accept His true nature. His grace and mercy and I did. I am not completely there but I am working on it.

Next Self Control & Compassion. These two areas were harder than the two previous. I was really bad at telling myself ‘No!’ and really bad at sympathizing. Now, grace and mercy had helped me to soften up and meet people when they absolutely need it most. It also allowed God to use me and in the midst of that I became a licensed minister.

I was really having a rough time telling myself ‘No!’.

I am here! Right now in this moment, I am here. This day, this hour, this minute. I have defeated the ‘lack of self-control.’ All with the power and grace of Jesus Christ. It was hard. I have struggled with this for years, nine to be exact. Nine years of ‘Mary, Mary Quite Contrary!’. Nine years of disobedience and back and forth. Three weeks ago, I realized I lacked a few things of daily regimen of a child of God and the relationship I was seeking with the Lord…


No, lie there. That kind of attitude held me back for years and it made me mad that I let Satan con me like that. I wanted a deeper relationship with God, but I didn’t want to read the bible now, I didn’t want to pray or talk now. So many I don’t this, I don’t that… I wonder how I ever survived this life. In the three weeks that I stopped looking through my own eyes and through Christ’s, I watched my self skip, walk, trip, face plant in nasty dirty sin, and wash off and repeat the same process.

It was high time I quit!

It was time to change for good. To break free from the mold of the world and become a heavenly kingdom dweller. Earth isn’t my home it’s a stop on my journey, a heck of a long stop! I removed everything from me that was hindering Jesus Christ from using me. Let me repeat that, “I REMOVED EVERYTHING FROM ME THAT WAS HINDERING ANY KIND OF RELATIONSHIP WITH JESUS CHRIST.” At some point in your life you are going to have to sit your butt down and get really serious and question yourself and gain a new perspective, particularly Jesus Christs’ perspective.

I saw doors open up. During the Saturday evening prayer session I attended and my home life,even my relationship with Jesus. Doors are opening and it feels amazing and things look beautiful in this cracked world when you are looking through the eyes of Heaven. You know and see that God has a special plan for everything and everything must bow in the end to His glory. Compassion isn’t a far cry, but I haven’t mastered it either. I’m not around a lot of new people every day, but I get to practice on my tender-hearted sister. It’s a work in progress but I’m working on it.

All of this has led up to God bringing me back to my first love and that is to be a Veterinarian. I now work at a specialty pet hospital.

At no point in your life you should ever want to stop working on the You God intended you to be. Always keep at it and don’t give up. Jesus didn’t give up at the garden when he was taken into custody, so you don’t either. He didn’t give up at the cross, and he most assuredly didn’t give up at the grave. His work continues forever more as the Prince of Peace, giving us all we need to keep going.

A few tips for getting there:

  1. Don’t stop running the race of great faith.
  2. Don’t run too fast, you’ll miss everything and the journey is very important.
  3. Pace your self, the journey/run is long.
  4. Make sure to include Jesus 100% of the way. Always talk with Him. (Notice I said ‘with’ and not ‘to’.)
  5. Praise and thanksgiving will make it easier on you and will show God the glory and honor He deserves.
  6. Don’t be in denial! Biggest mistake you could eve make in your life.
  7. Don’t force it. Let God do all the cleansing and rearranging, just open up to him through bible study, prayer, and worship. Having a good group of God fearing friends around is a great way to stay motivated.
  8. Goals. Set Goals. Be realistic to your needs and wants. Also, It’s okay to miss a few, but jump right back on it.
  9. Every aspect of you life counts in this race, not just the inside: soul and spirit; but the outside: body, as well.
  10. Stay Motivated! This is so important. Satan will try all he can to take a child of God away from there inheritance of the Kingdom of Heaven. So keep at it. Some days you will need to be alone, others you will need to saturate yourself with people, make sure they are helpful to your spirit.


B’Sweet~Stay Faithful,

Annie ♥


Divine Romance

Divine Romance. The only thing that sums up God’s love for me and How my heart feels when He acknowledges me. What is this thing with in me that take flight and reaches cloud nine whenever I hear this song. I’ve always been fan of Phil Wickham and he never ceases to amaze me with how he sings and places the right amount of faith into his voice to give it the touch, then God sanctifies my ears every time I hear them. To Show my Love. I want nothing more than to stop crying and just feel cradled in His love. To Show my Love. The places where I feel pain and don’t know how to combat it; those places that feels so empty. Those places I can’t reach.

I’ve just started doing a bible study and it;s called ‘She Reads Truth: Fresh Start’. I really do feel like I need a fresh start and with moving in progress I thought this would be the best time and I was right, God lead me to this Bible plan and I am sticking to this devotion. God can make something out of nothing and I’m that nothing, he is surely taking his sweet time refining me in the fire, and chiseling me with those mighty tools he uses.

I will today and onward look to God with a new light. Something I just couldn’t have seen through before. I believe I am seeing but I feel like I can’t exactly get the notion of what I am looking at. But for that issue, I choose to “lift up my eyes to the hills—From whence comes my help? My help comes from the Lord, Who made heaven and earth.” Psalm 121:1-2 NKJV. I have no other Hope left and the little that I’ve been living on I will invest it into Jesus Christ my older brother, my savior, my ultimate redeemer and the carer of my heart.

“I don’t thank you much, and that’s not at all my intention. Please forgive me, I don’t get the hang of it most of the time, but I know you are there to help me. So this time, I’m actually looking at the whole picture and actually getting to see you in the background. Thank you. Truly, you’re the best thing that has ever happened to me. Thank you so much, Jesus.”

♥ Annie

I rejoice in this Divine Romance,

Annie ♥