Being Self Aware


The last Sunday in June, I had to preach/teach a special lesson. A lesson, that usually doesn’t get put into words very often, but we learn it along the way. We struggle with these things because we are always growing, but when they are placed out on a line and we can see it with our eyes, we begin to see them for what they really are.

Applicable key points to why and how being self-aware of your life markers; the things that make up your life and your surroundings, can help you see the world as God sees it.

What the devil wants us to see is the things that we want- that we can get with out God-, not need from God. He also makes us focus on the things that bums us out instead of giving them to God and focusing on how great God is in seasons and storms and out of them. But if we keep a constant check on us and our surroundings, we can’t miss step with God or have disappointments which are also “missed appointments”. Let’s read on…

Being Self Aware

  1. You can’t harm yourself or anyone else. [No harm, no foul] 1 Chronicle 16:22 + Psalms 105:15, Proverbs 3:30, Acts 28:5, Romans 13:10
  2. It means to “Gut Check”, spirit check, just evaluate your progress and perspective. [Gut check, Spirit check] Haggai 1:7
  3. Perspective is key… Always keep your focus on the things around you, how they affect you (make you feel) and your reaction to them. [Look through the eyes of heaven] 2 Corinthians 5:7
  4. Priorities are key… Always reorder them. Life happens, so things change, but remember God doesn’t. [Make time for what really matters] Matthew 6:33, Romans 12:2

(5-9)[What you do on the inside affects the outside] 2 Corinthians 11:22-33, 12:1-6 Ephesians 6:10-18

  1. Physical Awareness of your relationship with how you treat and take care of yourself, your rewards from God, and other people.
  2. Spiritual Awareness of how you treat yourself, Jesus, and other people.
  3. Mental Awareness of the enemy’s attack to your mind, and how you handle that with the whole armor of God.
  4. Emotional Awareness of how you react in life to situations good and bad. God gave us emotions to experience life. Not to harm life, memories, or people around us.
  5. It’s okay to feel tired, exhausted, frustrated and so on… Just don’t stay there.
  6. Balance is key, Jesus is key. Jesus never said “I am tired of being the good guy. I’m tired of carrying you, to pick you up when you fall, and to go over the same topic with you for the hundredth time.” [Find your Jesus center] John 16:33
  7. Move on! Your issues won’t be issues forever. Choose to solve the ones you can with the knowledge of Christ and give the rest you can’t solve to Christ. [Forgive and Forget] Matthew 6:12, Psalms 86:5
  8. Be wise with your words! Satan has only a few tactics in which to tempt and harm us, while God gave us simple victory with our words. So use them wisely. A good way to think about it is to say, God wants us to use Jesus wisely, since He is the Word that was is the beginning. [Wise men use wise words] Ephesians 5:4, John 1:1


B’Sweet~Stay Self Aware,


Kevin Zadai-It’s Supernatural Network

Good Day,

It’s been too long a wait. I recently listened to a radio pod of this on ISN, and will be watching the video soon. This really encouraged me to not let the “disappointments” take over my emotions, because technically, I was the one who didn’t align myself to the will of God.

Things I pulled away from just listening:

♥Don’t Forget Ephesians 6:12-13

  • 12 For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places.
  • 13 Wherefore take unto you the whole armor of God, that ye may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand.
    • When I was in High-school (Grades 9-12) I always had a set schedule and I followed it for the most part. I would say Psalms 23 in the mirror every morning after I was dressed, before breakfast. I look at it now and thank God for the diligence I had learned in that season at age 14, because believe it or not, little things like that gave me a foundation for my day. It put me out of harms way and kept me on the path running towards Jesus.
      • Kevin Zadai learned that repeating God’s Word over your life lifts and completely, utterly destroys the devils lies that he has thrown at your soul through your life time. #stayprayedup
      • So, start small! Choose a scripture that works for you. For me it was Psalms 23 and it was helpful to me then. Still is now but when you grow you need to move on to the next step. And for me that is Ephesians 6:10-18. Psalms 23 helped me to remember and imprint on my soul and mind that God is my shepherd, protector, provider, caretaker, you name it. He keeps us! And as a searching Christian teen, that was all I needed to start. I am no a young “adult” (at least that’s what I’m told☺) and learning to keep myself through daily and spiritual warfare is a must. Not just for me but for everyone as well. Satan, the devil, can come in and in a blink of an eye, steal everything from you (deams, hopes, wants, needs) and then cauterize you; not the good kind of burned flesh so you can stop the bleeding, but the kind that leaves you in pain and wishing you had went to Jesus, the good doctor who can heal all wounds.

When you were a baby christian you used crawling scriptures, now you are an adult christian you need to use walking (running) scripture.

♥Jeremiah 29:11-13

  • 11 For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the Lord, thoughts of peace,
  • and not of evil, to give you an expected end.
  • 12 Then shall ye call upon me, and ye shall go and pray unto me, and I will hearken unto you.
  • 13 And ye shall seek me, and find me, when ye shall search for me with all your heart.
    • I am once again humbled and yet awe inspired once again by the lover of my heart. This scripture isn’t preached with enough heart these days. Because God loves me, enough to end his son to die on a cross so that I can come free to the throne of grace, and in grace. Jesus’ loves me so much to cheer me on, give me advice, wisdom, and still put up with my wishy-washy ways, and yet when I come to my sense, He is still there at that place where I walked away from waiting for my return, because His words never come back void.
    • My prayers are always answered. If we keep on praying, don’t think that nothing is happening; in the spirit everything produces fruit. Don’t just look for the spectacular, look for the small rumbling in life knowing that the Angels have to get through the evil spirits and principalities in the air, and eventually with patience your answer will be there.

Never stop believing. When you give up before the blessing reaches you, you stop your blessing. Satan tries to stop you before your blessing comes. Ultimately, the devil knows we will pray, We Will Pray! If he can’t stop us from praying the blessing into action, he can stop us from grasping it in our hands.

♥Luke 12:12
The Holy Spirit is a Winner!!!

  • 12 For the Holy Spirit will teach you in that very hour what you ought to say.”
    • There are so many scriptures to choose about the Holy Spirit, but this one gives us the gist of what we “ought” to do.
    • Kevin Zadai learns that the Holy Spirit does not know what losing, lack, debt, is or means. He does not entertain, believe, understand, what these things are. He is a winner through and through. He sets forth to accomplish and does. Nothing comes back void. So when you #stayprayedup you keep a straight line with the Holy Spirit and you can accomplish many things across the board and in all realms.

Set aside you understanding, and let the Holy Spirit lead you.
Read, 1 Corinthians 2

I have received a lot of perspective from this and hope the rest of you will too.

Radio Pod{http://sidroth.org/radio/radio-archives/kevin-zadai/}



B’Sweet-Stay Prayed Up,



Sin & Righteousness

Good Day,

A commentary in my  Bible, The Evidence Bible, by John MacArthur refering to Romans 5:20 says,

“God’s grace cannot be faithfully preached to unbelievers until His Law is preached and man’s corrupt nature is exposed. It is impossible for a person to fully realize his need for God’s grace until he sees how teribly he has failed the standards of God’s Law. It is impossible for him to realize his need for mercy until he realizes the magnitude of his guilt.”

It’s important to know this isn’t just for others who aren’t believers in Christ Jesus, but for ourselves. Many times it takes us to go back and examine ourselves. We are humans. We have flesh and spirit; they war with each other as it says in Galatians 5:16-17. It’s alright to know you are human, because God knows this and we have an advocate who sits at His right hand, Luke 22:69. But that doesn’t mean to continue in sin.

It means to get a grip on with your life. God did not make us with a folly spirit. Most assuredly he has given us free will, Galatians 4:31. I’ll tell you, I am not a perfect person.


Yes, I just said that. If I was perfect I wouldn’t have a story to tell. I wouldn’t be relateable. I would be speaking hot air constantly and this blog, my life, would be meaningless. Nothing would mater and Satan would have won me over. If I have nothing to live for, how can I know the standards that were set by God?How would I know right from wrong. Well first, God set the standards (all the commandment, not just the ten) for me and you, for us. I wouldn’t be writing meaningful blogpost, singing meaningful praise & worship, leaning on righteous faith for my business, living, if I did not live by the standards set.

We don’t make the standards, God does.

We don’t have to do the hard work of thinking and thinking about what is right or wrong. God has already done that for us. We don’t have to do the hard work. God always lays down the foundation for us. Now, we do have to do the work, and God never ever asks us to do the work in our own strength. He tells us to rely on Him and only Him, Isaiah 40:29 and Psalms 105:4.

When we realize we aren’t the true saints we need to be in God, that’s when the real change begins. It’s hard, I know it is, but the work and the final product; the reward, is ever so sweet. It is amazing to finally take the plank out of your own eyes(Matthew 7:3-5) before someone else and see the hurt and grime built up on your vessel(1 Thessalonians 4:4), the carrying piece of the Holy Spirit.

We aren’t perfect, in fact our canvases were made blank so God can write our stories in its great magnificent detail. God is just that good. Remember to check yourself daily. Don’t be caught off guard ever, in as God comes back and you are not ready(Luke 21:36).

B’Sweet-Stay Sweet,

Annie ♡


Good Day Friends,

Today is OBD! I am happy to announce the first podcast on my blog. It’s been a long decision but it was finally made and so here it is. You will need:

1. Time    2. A Heart Willing To Learn   3. The Holy Spirit

I Hope you enjoy this podcast.

God Is Uncompromising Published on PodOmatic

A few scriptures to go along with the Podcast:

  • Psalm 57:7 My heart is steadfast, O God, my heart is steadfast! I will sing and make melody!”
  • Proverbs 20:28Steadfast love and faithfulness preserve the king, and by steadfast love his throne is upheld.
  • 2 Peter 1:6 ” For this very reason, make every effort to supplement your faith with virtue, and virtue with knowledge, and knowledge with self-control, and self-control with steadfastness, and steadfastness with godliness, and godliness with brotherly affection, and brotherly affection with love.”
  • Colossians 4:2 “Continue steadfastly in prayer, being watchful in it with thanksgiving.”
  • Exodus 20:6 “but showing steadfast love to thousands of those who love me and keep my commandments.”
  • 1 Chronicles 16:34 Oh give thanks to the Lord, for he is good; for his steadfast love endures forever!”

One person, in the Bible, has talked about Gods amazing-saving-grace and steadfast love all the time. David. He knew what it meant to give himself up daily. He was a great in expressing his worries, doubts, love, joy, in the simplest form known to human nature. With out voices. With praise and worship. It was natural for David, the anointed king, to give up his desires and wants to God as if his life depended on it. And so shall I be. I want to depend on God and no one else. Unless God says otherwise, I look toward Him, and Him alone.

Maybe in a later podcast or blog, I’ll talk about the promise ring and necklace plus the letters. Give you more of an insight on promises and how I’ve progressed since then and now.


B’ Sweet~Stay Sweet,

Annie ♥


Know For Yourself: Don’t Give Up.

{Previously Named: I Got A Job! Giving you highlights from my story!}

Hey There,

I Got A Job! I can’t believe I am saying this but, I got a job! You might think, ‘well what is so great about this news?’ So here is the answer… it’s my first job. I have never had a job in all my twenty-two years of life.

I just didn’t want to settle.

I used to help my mom with her daycare, though I never got paid. She needed the help and I was there, so in retrospect I help my mother out for seven years. I don’t really consider it a job, even though I was basically there as a worker, I didn’t need a job during that time now that I think about it. I could probably, also contribute to being twenty-two and not working till now by the idea that I was pretty lazy.

Pretty Lazy. Then, no one could top me.

I was really lazy and I knew at some point I wanted to not be because God didn’t make me lazy. Now, I didn’t grow up in a family that was rich. No, by far. But, we were well off; consider high-middle class. We had it when we had it and when we didn’t we had family and church friends to help us out.

During my high school years I really wanted a car but then discovered a really ‘disheartened’ catch twenty-two… I needed a car, to drive to work-> I need money to get said car-> I need a job that will pay me money to get said car.

Catch 22 = Car>Money>Job

This catch 22 was so mind-boggling to me then and it still is except this time we have two cars in my little four people family. My, Mama, My Step-Papa, My Sister, and I. My sister started working in November 2014 where God miraculously provided a car which she takes good care of and my mama, well she ‘lost’ her first car and got another one so she’s fine now. I have goals to get a car soon, but before then I am going to save up for a hefty down payment.

Now, how I got to this part in life where I shook off my lazy bouts and decided to let God change me was long process starting from late high school days: senior year.There was no way in this universe you could get me in retail. I applied but no one ever called back. I didn’t really have a liking for retail nor food establishment and I believe God knew and understood.

I moved back to my old city of residence back in fall 2014 and got back into a lazy funk. This time it wasn’t the same lazy but more so, me asking God ‘What Now?’

‘God, What do I do now with my life?’

I believe everyone come to a certain point in there life, if not points, and ask God what do I do now.  It’s possible to ask every week even and I’ve learned ‘without exercised trust and faith in God, I will forever be lost.’ The previous year God took me through a patience exercise and I am a more patient than I have ever been in my life.

“Watch and pray that you may not enter into temptation. The spirit indeed is willing, but the flesh is weak.” Matthew 26:14

I wanted to learn how to put my life on track for God, with God. My spirit was willing my flesh to get in order. I knew it took steps to get where I am today and it is going to take more steps to get further. In order to get to a place where I could not be lazy or a ‘parked car’, God had to first free me of my trouble some impatience with Him. I was a really impatient person, especially knowing that God was going to bless me with things He said and it’s been years I haven’t seen them yet. That ‘exercise’ was a pull and tug two year journey that I don’t want to go back through.

Almighty Grace and Mercy.

Brotherly Kindness & Gentleness were next. I lacked any kind of grace and mercy. I had no grace and didn’t even use the word, not even as a name. Mercy, I had very little of. I was shown mercy, yes, but I didn’t show mercy in return. This lack of knowledge led me to be very abrasive to others including family while being exceptionally harsh and judgmental of myself. Now before this sounds like a sob fest I must confess, I was very tough-skinned so my harsh nature with myself wasn’t shocking for me. I would combat myself, ‘You need to do better.” and sometimes it did get pretty rough and dirty, “I feel so stupid. I feel like a dumb person, as if I can’t learn.”

Like an Onion, Layer by Layer.

Once I passed though patience it was like God was stripping an onion. Layer by Layer. Patience was a big problem because I didn’t rely on people but God, the only problem was waiting. Brotherly Kindness was a bit more difficult. I was painfully, self aware, die hard loner. I remember in 2010 for valentines day, two of my sisters and I made a promise/pledge and they were sealed off with sentimental items. Mines from the both of them were pretty similar, I could see God moving; to break out of my shell and blossom into a young lady. I am the baby in the family, hence forth and forevermore always treated as the last to know and to see.

The point of the matter is I didn’t to break it. It was a promise I made to them both and with God as my witness. I didn’t want to break it and I still don’t. God used a moment while I was uprooted from the familiar and placed in the unfamiliar to get me to accept His true nature. His grace and mercy and I did. I am not completely there but I am working on it.

Next Self Control & Compassion. These two areas were harder than the two previous. I was really bad at telling myself ‘No!’ and really bad at sympathizing. Now, grace and mercy had helped me to soften up and meet people when they absolutely need it most. It also allowed God to use me and in the midst of that I became a licensed minister.

I was really having a rough time telling myself ‘No!’.

I am here! Right now in this moment, I am here. This day, this hour, this minute. I have defeated the ‘lack of self-control.’ All with the power and grace of Jesus Christ. It was hard. I have struggled with this for years, nine to be exact. Nine years of ‘Mary, Mary Quite Contrary!’. Nine years of disobedience and back and forth. Three weeks ago, I realized I lacked a few things of daily regimen of a child of God and the relationship I was seeking with the Lord…


No, lie there. That kind of attitude held me back for years and it made me mad that I let Satan con me like that. I wanted a deeper relationship with God, but I didn’t want to read the bible now, I didn’t want to pray or talk now. So many I don’t this, I don’t that… I wonder how I ever survived this life. In the three weeks that I stopped looking through my own eyes and through Christ’s, I watched my self skip, walk, trip, face plant in nasty dirty sin, and wash off and repeat the same process.

It was high time I quit!

It was time to change for good. To break free from the mold of the world and become a heavenly kingdom dweller. Earth isn’t my home it’s a stop on my journey, a heck of a long stop! I removed everything from me that was hindering Jesus Christ from using me. Let me repeat that, “I REMOVED EVERYTHING FROM ME THAT WAS HINDERING ANY KIND OF RELATIONSHIP WITH JESUS CHRIST.” At some point in your life you are going to have to sit your butt down and get really serious and question yourself and gain a new perspective, particularly Jesus Christs’ perspective.

I saw doors open up. During the Saturday evening prayer session I attended and my home life,even my relationship with Jesus. Doors are opening and it feels amazing and things look beautiful in this cracked world when you are looking through the eyes of Heaven. You know and see that God has a special plan for everything and everything must bow in the end to His glory. Compassion isn’t a far cry, but I haven’t mastered it either. I’m not around a lot of new people every day, but I get to practice on my tender-hearted sister. It’s a work in progress but I’m working on it.

All of this has led up to God bringing me back to my first love and that is to be a Veterinarian. I now work at a specialty pet hospital.

At no point in your life you should ever want to stop working on the You God intended you to be. Always keep at it and don’t give up. Jesus didn’t give up at the garden when he was taken into custody, so you don’t either. He didn’t give up at the cross, and he most assuredly didn’t give up at the grave. His work continues forever more as the Prince of Peace, giving us all we need to keep going.

A few tips for getting there:

  1. Don’t stop running the race of great faith.
  2. Don’t run too fast, you’ll miss everything and the journey is very important.
  3. Pace your self, the journey/run is long.
  4. Make sure to include Jesus 100% of the way. Always talk with Him. (Notice I said ‘with’ and not ‘to’.)
  5. Praise and thanksgiving will make it easier on you and will show God the glory and honor He deserves.
  6. Don’t be in denial! Biggest mistake you could eve make in your life.
  7. Don’t force it. Let God do all the cleansing and rearranging, just open up to him through bible study, prayer, and worship. Having a good group of God fearing friends around is a great way to stay motivated.
  8. Goals. Set Goals. Be realistic to your needs and wants. Also, It’s okay to miss a few, but jump right back on it.
  9. Every aspect of you life counts in this race, not just the inside: soul and spirit; but the outside: body, as well.
  10. Stay Motivated! This is so important. Satan will try all he can to take a child of God away from there inheritance of the Kingdom of Heaven. So keep at it. Some days you will need to be alone, others you will need to saturate yourself with people, make sure they are helpful to your spirit.


B’Sweet~Stay Faithful,

Annie ♥


Hey Everyone,

Recently for morning devotion and bible study I came across one verse in Exodus 40. Verse 38.

The Cloud and the Glory

34 Then the cloud covered the tabernacle of meeting, and the glory of the Lord filled the tabernacle. 35 And Moses was not able to enter the tabernacle of meeting, because the cloud rested above it, and the glory of the Lord filled the tabernacle. 36 Whenever the cloud was taken up from above the tabernacle, the children of Israel would go onward in all their journeys. 37 But if the cloud was not taken up, then they did not journey till the day that it was taken up. 38 For the cloud of the Lord was above the tabernacle by day, and fire was over it by night, in the sight of all the house of Israel, throughout all their journeys.

This rang out to me. I mean think about. God is the lamp to their path. He needed something to keep sanction with them in. The Tabernacle, that could be erected where ever and when ever. God knew that they were going to come up against certain things that they would not be able to handle so he was with them 24/7. He was there in the tabernacle and traveling with them day and night in the functions noted in scripture. He lit the way for them. He was basically like a genie in a magic lamp, because we know the magic lamp was beautiful in it’s color of gold, then we also know that the tabernacle was gorgeous. God needed a clean house. He made sure there was laws they kept to keep the sanctuary holy and clean. You know God’s not a genie; nope, we get more chances than we know and if we opened our hearts and see the love and patience God really has for us we wouldn’t take Him for granted.


B’Sweet-Stay Sweet,

Annie ♥